I'm thrilled that this week is almost over. I never dreamed that getting my wisdom teeth out would suck so much. Monday, after the numbness wore off, I was in more pain than I've ever felt. This includes when I nearly cut my elbow off skateboarding and when I broke my ankle. I'd venture to say worse than both of those combined.

I don't know what has been worse though...the pain or the isolation. I love having days off, don't get me wrong. Fridays are bliss to me because I don't work and I don't have class. But laying here in my room for 3 days straight watching movies has been torture. I know that sounds so silly because it's what a lot of people want. But I can't do it. I want to be in class, I want to be at work I want to be exercising. I know sometimes I complain about all of these things but this week has put it in perspective for me.

Last night, Joshua was over. We ate and took a nap. I woke up a bit later and knew he would have to be leaving soon. I got so emotional about it and the whole week came tumbling down. He helped me push through the emotions and we concluded that it was probably because I'd been so stationary all week. We went on a walk and it helped a lot.

I like having a life. I like not sitting in front of the computer or the television. It brought me down to a depressed state. Getting out, breathing fresh air, talking with someone it helped a great deal.

Today, my mouth feels but still pretty painful. I took pills when I woke up so I feel a bit high right now. I also feel grumpy. I've come very close to saying a lot of hurtful, yet truthful things to people. I know that it's not me who is mean, it's just what I feel right now.

I hear you breathing in
another day begins

the stars are falling out
my dreams are fading now, fading out

I've been keeping my eyes wide open
I've been keeping my eyes wide open

your love is a symphony
all around me
running through me

your love is a melody
underneath me
running to me

your love is a song

the dawn is fire bright
against the city lights

the clouds are glowing now
the moon is blacking out

I've been keeping my mind wide open
I've been keeping my mind wide open

your love is a song

with my eyes wide open
I've got my eyes wide open
I've been keeping my hopes unbroken

[Switchfoot]

Keirstyn: I'm sorry I peed on you. I'm sorry I peed on you.
Me: He has to change, give him a sec.
Keirstyn: I'll wait right here.  ::sits down next to bathroom::

I took Josh home to meet the family and to go to Kaidenn's dedication. We had dinner with my mom on Saturday and then went over to Kayleigh's and crashed. Sunday we got up and went to St. Charles. I had been there once when I was younger. After mass, we went to Kayleigh's dad's church, had doughnuts and waited on church to start. Kaidenn fell asleep. He was dedicated, it was precious.
Afterwards, Joshua and I went to Asuka (Japanese) and had some tasty foods. We picked my mom up and headed to my brother's. It was great to see my neices and the little guy. He started crying at one point and I walked around with him and he stopped and fell asleep. Jess said aside from her and Matt he hasn't done that to anyone. The afternoon consisted of reading books, coloring, beating up aunt Isha and Keirstyn being attached to Josh's hip. They had lots of adventures with crabs and everything else her mind could make up.

It was an awesome time.

It's great to see my brother so happy with his family. I'm proud of him.