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Thursday, 19 November 2009

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    Gone with the Wind
    By Margaret Mitchell
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    Wisdom Teeth Saga

    I'm thrilled that this week is almost over. I never dreamed that getting my wisdom teeth out would suck so much. Monday, after the numbness wore off, I was in more pain than I've ever felt. This includes when I nearly cut my elbow off skateboarding and when I broke my ankle. I'd venture to say worse than both of those combined.

    I don't know what has been worse though...the pain or the isolation. I love having days off, don't get me wrong. Fridays are bliss to me because I don't work and I don't have class. But laying here in my room for 3 days straight watching movies has been torture. I know that sounds so silly because it's what a lot of people want. But I can't do it. I want to be in class, I want to be at work I want to be exercising. I know sometimes I complain about all of these things but this week has put it in perspective for me.

    Last night, Joshua was over. We ate and took a nap. I woke up a bit later and knew he would have to be leaving soon. I got so emotional about it and the whole week came tumbling down. He helped me push through the emotions and we concluded that it was probably because I'd been so stationary all week. We went on a walk and it helped a lot.

    I like having a life. I like not sitting in front of the computer or the television. It brought me down to a depressed state. Getting out, breathing fresh air, talking with someone it helped a great deal.

    Today, my mouth feels but still pretty painful. I took pills when I woke up so I feel a bit high right now. I also feel grumpy. I've come very close to saying a lot of hurtful, yet truthful things to people. I know that it's not me who is mean, it's just what I feel right now.

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

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    I'm About To Come Alive
    By David Nail
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    I've got a roof over my head, the man I love laying in my bed.

    Lately, I've been so happy to just be. Be in this moment, be in this day, be in this month, this year. I look forward to the future, yes. But I'm not pouring myself into every detail of what could be tomorrow or what could be in a year. I am happy today, with all aspects. I look forward to each moment I exist as much as I look forward to each moment I will exist in. I have to live in each day, because each moment has it's own memory. In time, I will get to the huge, monumental events and I want to live in each millisecond of those, to inhale every moment. Time slips away each day, I want to hold each day in my hand for it's given amount of time before I welcome the next new day.

    Does that mean everything is perfect and easy? Does it mean that it always goes my way, that every day floats by with sunshine and rainbows? Of course not. I still have bad days, I still have days when I feel like I should give up from the second I wake up.

    But I don't. I get up and do what I need to do. I get up and accomplish. I get up and kiss the one I love. Make him breakfast. I get up and drag myself into class and participate because I have the will to learn. I get up and I groggily smile at each patron that walks into the library. I get up and smile when I think of the people I love. I get up and I pray. I get up and I take in God's word. I get up and Isha every day.

     I am happy for every moment that I accomplish living.

    I grasp the fact that even in the negative aspects of day to day life, I have blessings simply with each breath I take.

    I pray that this "lately" is always.


Tuesday, 03 November 2009

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    Hello Hurricane
    By Switchfoot
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    Your Love is a Song

    I hear you breathing in
    another day begins

    the stars are falling out
    my dreams are fading now, fading out

    I've been keeping my eyes wide open
    I've been keeping my eyes wide open

    your love is a symphony
    all around me
    running through me

    your love is a melody
    underneath me
    running to me

    your love is a song

    the dawn is fire bright
    against the city lights

    the clouds are glowing now
    the moon is blacking out

    I've been keeping my mind wide open
    I've been keeping my mind wide open

    your love is a song

    with my eyes wide open
    I've got my eyes wide open
    I've been keeping my hopes unbroken

    [Switchfoot]

Monday, 02 November 2009

  • Spring 2010

    Well, here it is, my schedule for Spring 2010. IUPUI has me as a Junior, but I think I'll be able to finish at the end of 2010. We'll see, if not, I'll finish in the Spring of 2011.

    Tuesday/Thur: 

    (10:30-11:45) Radical Philosophy with Dumbledore [3 credits]
    (12:00-1:15) [Starts in March] Astronomy (topic hasn't been announced) [1 credit]
    (1:30-2:45) History 108 [3 credits]
    (3:00-4:15) Poetry [3 credits]
    (6-8:40) [Only on Tuesday] Capstone {I have no idea what this is, I have to have it t graduate     though. [3 credits]
                          
    (Online) Child and Adolescent Psychology [3 credits]


    This always changes, so we'll see. But all my classes are essentially on Tues/Thur. It's a heavy load, but I think I can manage if if I can stay focused.

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